why me??

me: mak, how my exam results? is it good?

my mom : hmm.. kaklong got the better results than you ..

me: ok :(

I was silent and then I alone, and said in my heart, 'mak.. why not compare me with other siblings?' I know .. mak wants the best for me .. but other siblings? mak did not compare them with me .. I'm better than them, I'm just less good than my eldest sister .. 

dear Suhazrina,

I tell the truth.. mother talk sometimes annoys me .. I try to be better than you .. maybe my luck just like that..

sometimes, I feel want to run from all of the speech that hurt my heart.. but how?